Recently the fatigue has really hit me hard I'm always tired as it is, but add in a cold and now a sinus infection and I have nothing left If you know about the spoon theory, I have about 3 spoons every day currently For anyone who doesn't know what this means, it's a concept… Continue reading When the Fatigue Hits
Month: Aug 2018
Questioning my Illness
Most days I feel my illness I know it's real and I feel awful Like the life is sucked out of me But sometimes no matter how rarely I feel almost human Like I'm miraculously cured On those good days I question my illness Like everyone else does for me I wonder if I was… Continue reading Questioning my Illness
Extra Illness
To me normality is being ill My body always feels like it's coming down with the flu The full body aches And feeling constantly drained When I do get a cold Everything I normally experience is heightened It makes my symptoms worse And I'm even more drained I can't carry on like others I can't… Continue reading Extra Illness
Sleep
Sleep is a blessing and a curse It is both great and evil Possible and impossible Easy and hard Some nights I sleep well It's the only time I don't feel pain The only time I feel normal It is needed for me to survive Even when I sleep well I still wake up tired… Continue reading Sleep
Learn to Live Again
Sometimes you just need a break To get away from the stress of life Breathe in the fresh air And relax for a while Take in the sights of the world Remind yourself of the beauty it holds Look at life from a different angle And enjoy yourself for a while Do the things you… Continue reading Learn to Live Again
The Future
I worry about the future And what I will be like Will I be able to keep a job? Will I have to live off benefits? If I'm struggling now How will I cope? I try not to think about it Try not to dwell But sometimes I can't help it When I'm feeling down… Continue reading The Future
More Than Tired
I'm more than tired I'm chronically fatigued I never have much energy Sleeping won't make it better I'm more than tired I struggle to sleep And when I do sleep I still wake exhausted I'm more than tired So don't judge me Don't think I can sleep it off I live with it every day… Continue reading More Than Tired
One Day at a Time
This is a song I wrote a couple of years ago. I sing it on the bad days to keep me going ♥️ I've been lying awake all night wondering how it came to light I've been telling myself nothing's wrong when nothing's going right I've been waiting around trying to figure out what the… Continue reading One Day at a Time
Life Passes By
Life passes by In the blink of an eye I try to keep up with it But there is just no way Others move on Taking the next steps In their careers, their lives Their relationships too Stuck in a cycle That I can't escape from I don't have a social life It's unachievable Pain… Continue reading Life Passes By
See the Truth
To you I may look like any normal healthy person But if you look long enough you will see the truth Behind my smile I'm gritting my teeth I'm trying not to let the pain show I'm walking slower than usual Favouring one leg over the other Staring into the distance Trying to remember what… Continue reading See the Truth