When people ask how I am
I usually smile and say “I’m fine”
Oh the lies I tell to hide my pain
I don’t understand why I do it
I just can’t help it
Am I hiding from judgment?
Those who believe my illness is fake?
Am I just trying to be brave?
Lying to myself that everything’s fine?
Yet I try to show subtle hints
When I’m really suffering it’s harder to hide
Instead I can muster “I’m alive”
But that’s as honest as it gets
I dare you to look beyond the smile
Please see the pain in my eyes
Please recognise the lie for what it is
Please support me
If you notice it please ask questions
Be interested but don’t press for answers
If you want to know I will tell
But only if you are prospective enough to notice
Only then will I tell you the truth
Only then will I trust you
I will recognise you as friend not foe
Please look beyond the smile