With chronic illness morning is the hardest part of the day
Through lack of sleep or poor sleep quality you wake exhausted
Not knowing how you will get through the rest of the day
Your body is so stuff and achy you can barely move
But too uncomfortable to stay still
Just getting out of bed is an achievement in itself
…
Weighing up if you have the energy to shower
Or if you will only be able to wipe yourself down
Whether your body can cope with nice clothes
Or if you will have to prioritise your comfort today
Whether you will feel better later on
Or if this is it and you will stay like it forever
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Somehow it always gets easier as the day goes on
You force your body to move and to get dressed
Dragging yourself around until you start to feel vaguely alive
Force feeding yourself so you can dose up and take on the day
Knowing nobody else understands or sees the struggle to get yourself up and out
Yes morning is the hardest part of the day
Absolutely true. Mornings were never my friend but as I developed fibromyalgia decades back, mornings have become increasingly difficult. Actually waking up, ie coming to enough to understand my own language and what planet I’m on, indeed if CAN wake up is my life. It’s hard and I hate it. I’m now 64 yrs old…and yes, I believe that this IS my forever life.
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I feel you! Even on a good day it’s hard to wake up and get up. On a bad day it can take hours for me to seem even vaguely alive and able to function on some level.
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I am so glad that I found your blog because a lot of things that you have posted is the same way I feel. Mornings are horrible for me!!
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